Race Of Arms: Beans in a jar

In general, I have to work in a pandemic. I am running a blog at a precise time where my silence has more exceptional added costs to discussions on how far the world wide communications are going to know how it feels.

How about a dead (body)? So weird, yes.

I tried to test Google search for college-knowledge. My controlled experiment has to swap with “I feel like I am supposed to be dead”.

What depression never knows for a well-structured Reddit peer support. The post has long-drawn-out catchy associations. So, meet the “I feel like I’m supposed to already be dead.”

Going to start this off by saying i have been suicidal for a long time, since I first learned the word. Some days are better than others. I either want to die, or REALLY want to die.

Anyways now that I’m an adult I feel even more lost in life, im failing out of college due to my mental health, I don’t find joy in anything, and i feel like shit all the time.

I feel like I have no purpose, no reason to be here

I feel like I was destined to be a statistic on teen suicide and see myself off at a young age

but I didn’t (too scared, got hospitalized, closely watched, feeling of guilt) and now im just here, on extra time, dead but also alive, like a failed timeline or a final destination movie.

I dont know im posting this but i just really needed to write it out to make myself feel better i guess

Posted by u/cowardl_y 1 year ago

I hope your getting therapy. If not, seek it out, college usually has options available. If your on meds, tell them they aren’t working. Alternatives may be better.

Hardest part of reaching an ideal state is wanting to change. I would use more logic to try an convince yourself to seek methods to change.

Also you have a lot to experience. Life gets dull when you stay in one spot and meet people with no diversity in culture.

Lastly college although an experience and money hog. Isn’t more important than your mental state. Plenty of people have failed multiple times and some never succeeded. Your world is bigger than your view.

Also a human can have 100 great things happen to them in a day but 1 bad thing feels like the end of the world to them. We tend to overlook the good and favor the bad to the max.

Also some people enjoy solitude more than social activities. That id why people leave cities and get a plot of land in the wilderness and love a hermet life style enjoying the simple things in life.

Fear can prevent you from finding a better lifestyle change. Pride can prevent you from getting help.

Sometimes i feel like a robot….void….then i made a green bean garden just because. An that for some reason makes things better for me right now. I may lose all my beans to animals or bugs but im really hoping to fry up some green beans.

Shadowx180 1 point · 1 year ago

Race of Arms: Depression

The hot talks over the crisis or perhaps meanwhile in every crisis hold the beast in social sciences. It is okay, and it means to keep going on to take economics degrees on Sunday morning then.

Now that the US economy is recovering from the Depression of 2008, people are wondering when will be the next great economic crash. The business cycle in the USA has had a period of 18 years, so the most likely year for the next great recession is 2026. The Depression of 2026 will have the same causes as the other depressions since the early 1800s (see this article).

Source: The Depression of 2026, Fred Foldvary, Ph.D. Economist

Actually what happened in the 1800s?

The are many events.

I am not so fluent in French. I should have learned the fluency factor in history lessons. Fortunately, I still have protestant friends. The political wisdom is like, why not preaching for all.

Panic of 1837

The Panic of 1837 was a financial crisis in the United States that touched off a major depression, which lasted until the mid-1840s. Profits, prices, and wages went down; unemployment went up; and pessimism abounded.

Wikipedia contributors. (2020, August 7). Panic of 1837. In Wikipedia, The Free Encyclopedia.
Whig cartoon showing the effects of unemployment on a family that has portraits of Democratic Presidents Andrew Jackson and Martin Van Buren on the wall.
Egyptian art. A house altar depicting Akhenaten, Nefertiti and three of their Daughters. Relief. Limestone. New Kingdom. Amarna period. 18th dynasty.
C. 1350 B.C. Egyptian Museum of Berlin. Germany.

There are two illustrations I find extremely close to one certain thing society is looking for during the corona crisis. Maybe it is what best-called fear of God.